Pictures of you and me

2009-07-02T22:26:00.000-07:00

migrated!
/click here to navigate to my new link:D

withloves, bell.

i love my wedges:D

2009-06-26T21:40:00.000-07:00

edit.

well, went out with jingyun is the late afternoon.
she sort of recovered.
so, we went out for dinner.
then, went fooling around in NTUC.
staying at home is boring.
every minute seems to be like a hour.
in conclusion, i will want to go out to study when school reopens.
gah gahs. pictures are at the bottom.
who says, i only wear cooling tops?
i am wearing sleeved top.
do check them out. :D

BELL'S FOOD DIARY

Breakfast
2 small curry puffs.

Lunch
1/2 plate of noodles.
1cup of plain water.
1cup of prune juice.

Dinner
chicken pasta.
1ice chocolate.
3cups of plain water.

Repair
30min cardio.

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111th post. :D

2009-06-26T06:18:00.000-07:00

gah gahs.
i can't stop smiling.
took more than 35 photos today.
well, deleted some.
haven't been updating photos to blogger.
cause the photos will mess up and i don't like it.
this will be a uber long post.
i will be uploading photos and last but not least.
my food diary.
heh hehs. i wanna see what i ate for the whole day.
woke up at 844am this morning.
accompanied jingyun to the clinic.
she felt feverish and called me telling me that she might have contracted swine flu.
hahas. when reached the clinic, she was asked to wear a mask.
and yea she did. i tied the mask for her.
the funny thing is i don't know how to.
so, i tied two big bows at the side of the ear.
and we did not realise that its wrong.
until we reached the lift and saw the poster sort of.
hahahas. sigh. should have taken a photo of it. funny.
so i paid her medical bills.
in another words, i can't cab to ballet on sunday!
hahahas. okays maybe its good to take the bus once in a while.
so, after that went to meet ziming.
heh hehs. i think i have nothing better to do.
i am feeling extremely guilty.
shouldn't have meet him today.
i think i am so so selfish nor.
meet up for my own benefits.
i wanted to ask for advice but i did not voice out.
i caused him to be late for his next meeting.
so so sorry.
he is uber busy.
and that i should have walk faster.
but but.. the blister hurts.
and thats the only reason why i am dragging my foot.
its time to invest in a new shoe.
i have been wearing old shoes out this few days.
i didn't know i have so much shoes until that day when i went into my store room.
and woah. i saw shoes!
hahas. enough of shoes.
then, went to my aunt's place.
played with my lil cousins.
its so tiring.
but the maid prepared delicious pasta.
hahas. was bloated after consuming the pasta.
i think tomorrow's breakfast is settled.
well, next up will be my food diary and photos.
stay tuned:D

BELL'S FOOD DIARY.

Breakfast
100ml ice chocolate milk.

Lunch
pasta.
1cup of coke.

Dinner
baby's food.
1/2 cup of orange juice
2cups of plain water.
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Repair
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they are the angels that made my day.
thank you:D

2009-06-24T10:28:00.000-07:00

deleted.
:)

ease that shopping urge.

2009-06-24T06:23:00.000-07:00

oh my god!
i saw one super stunning summer dress from BC.
its damn pretty.
i need something to ease that shopping urge.
i haven't receive my tube top from AE.
and now i am gonna buy another dress?
oh no. nope. i must learn to save money.
i don't need that dress.
yes. so i am not buying it.
the extremely pretty and intricate embroidery details..
FAINTS*
goodness gracious.
also, i saw that tote from victoria secrets.
that dress from forever21.
that dress from asos.
that shoe from gojane.
ouch! i can't get anything.
i still got tonnes of brand new clothes in my wardrobe.
okays. i am not buying anything.
but seriously, that bag from chanel.
dead gorgeous.
but the price is enough for me to survive for 6months without pocket money and shopping everyday.
i supposed.
i am not buying anything.
shucks. alright. went to the mall with my mom in the morning.
she specially took off and accompany me.
jealous? hahas.
window shopped.
saw nothing i fancy.
i am hard to please indeed.
alright. shall end my post here.
anyways, i have created a quiz in FB.
feel free to try:D
goodbyes:D

gah gahs.

2009-06-23T02:25:00.000-07:00

so, i stayed at home for the whole day.
i am a boring person.
i woke up rather late today.
and for the first time ever,
i find windows live messager annoying.
i tried three times to get myself online.
holidays will be ending this week.
heard that there is no extension.
just hope there will be.
i have yet to visit the science center.
yet to go to the choco buffet.
yet to fly a kite.
yet to go out with my mom.
yet to visit the museum.
yet to go swimming.
so much things that were left undo.
also, i don't know if i am gonna stop ballet.
teacher won't be teaching at pasir ris anymore.
troubles = stress.
i haven't show my parents my report card.
they will be utterly upset like how i am the other time.
i think i am pathetic. what do you think?

disastrous.

2009-06-22T08:32:00.000-07:00

well, went to cityhall in the morning with my dad and brother.
had a super breakfast.
i am bound to gain weight after eating so much.
met jingyun and her family in bugis then.
i swear, i hated bugis terribly.
especially bugis street.
i was taken advantage by an old man.
~!@#$%^&*()_+
Gees. i am not going there again without a guy.
hahas. today is once again another unproductive day.
i intend to study at home after breakfast.
but lots of temptations.
gonna go swimming with jingyun on one of these days.
cool. bought my swim wear already.
super loving it. heh hehs.
i should start studying tomorrow.
since i am not asked out, i will stay at home to study.
claps! kudos to myself. no television, nothing.
except my lappy. :D
anyways, just realised that nobody seems to be interested in ballet performances.
BALLET UNDER THE STARS.
only my ballet mates are sort of interested.
and i think the ticket are roughly sold out. D:
how sad. it will be so cool to sit under the stars and watch the dance.
no tickets, no entry. i am gonna miss it this time.
just have to wait till next year. D:
sad. sad. sad.
greedy girl here says goodbyes.

2009-06-21T11:23:00.000-07:00

i am contented:D

happy father's day:D

2009-06-20T21:29:00.000-07:00

gah gahs:D
its father's day.
heh hehs. celebrated father's day yesterday.
the food was such a blast.
ate so much that the food can't digest properly.
hahas. i am feeling so full right now though i did not eat anything in the morning.
so uncomfortable!
did not attend ballet today.
cause i think i may puke any time.
i don't want to dirty the studio.
hahas. but current mood is so bouncy.
i wanna dance in the studio.
spin and spin and spin.
until i fall, i will start laughing.
hahas. sounds like a mad woman huh.
alrights. shall end my post here.
lying down is the most comfortable position.
so, i shall rest.
i'll return in the late afternoon or night.
zoom zoom:D

strange.

2009-06-19T21:13:00.000-07:00

thinking through the whole night, i think i am being childish.
too imaginative i guess.
hahas. i am gonna stay at home today.
each time, when i receive a new message, i will get uber excited.
thinking its from the same person.
but each time, it doesn't fail to disappoint me.
i waited and waited and waited.
i believe good things will come to those who wait.
especially to those patient ones.
as time goes by, i begin to doubt myself.
also, beginning to doubt you.
maybe all along i am right.
you don't think the same way.
just some pure coincidence.
somehow or rather, by mere chances.
queer isn't it?
if i haven't been so lazy all this while,
it wouldn't have resulted to all this.
i think i am the silliest girl on the whole entire planet.
naive? i used to believe everything i saw or read.
but not anymore.
people who claimed that they miss each other over the Internet is to fabricate another story.
to maintain the friendship somehow?
anyways, i realised, people have been updating their blogs with what happened on that day itself.
whereas i am scribbling down my perspective of life.
i will consider closing my blog cause i don't wish to be different.
i'll be replying tags on this post.
goodbyes.

i can't read minds and i don't like guessing games.
just tell me.
i'll be grateful.

Tags reply.
Isabelle: why would you wanna conceal your whole entire body? also, you won't need help for your spilts anymore if you work harder on them. i am behind you 100% (:
Adabelle: you are linked too. thanks anyways.
Vanessa: yea. and thanks to you, i think i am the first one to eat a banana in the studio. also, may the 'honourable' title stay.
Katherine: saw you already. hope you enjoyed yourself yesterday(:
Yuting: grateful for your accompany that day. hope there will be more to come (:
Vanessa: went already!
Sis: are you leonard? hahas.
Xiaorou: thank you(:
Isabelle: what where got? hahs.
Isabelle's sister: where on earth did you get my link from. hahas. thanks for visiting. hope to hear more from you. (:
Vanessa: I WENT OUT WITH KATHERINE AND VANESSA YESTERDAY TOO. happy? hhaas.

lifeless.

2009-06-19T08:16:00.000-07:00

*stella and me:)

well. i don't intend to post initially.
but still, i am here.
i am so free at the moment.
did lots of stuffs today.

1. went to the picnic in the morning. made a new friend, stella :)
2. met jingyun.
3. wandered around Downtown and Tampines, those three shopping malls.
4. visited my mom's salon.
5. homed, chatted with my grandmother.
6. went online.
7. watched television shows with her.
8. finished reading the latest issue of SEVENTEEN magazine.
9. right here blogging.

if this is how everyday gonna be like,
i would rather do something more meaningful.
i have always wanted to do some volunteering work.
like helping out in the old forks home.
it will be fun i suppose.
i told my mom about it and she laughed.
and even added, 'you can't even take care of yourself and still want volunteer?'
and we'll start bickering.
but at the very least, i will be able to be occupied with things to do.
anyways, its 12:07 now, my mom just returned from work.
well, though she have never openly showed affection,
but i know she loves me.
she brought supper back for me:)
also, how annoying can my brother be?
he spilled oil onto me. grr.
he will never know that he is wrong.
he laughed and said, 'heh hehs, you shouldn't have stand there.'
family is going out for dinner tomorrow.
ask me out somebody please.
i don't wanna go for that dinner.
it will be so so so boring..
this post seems to be rather messy.
and the tenth thing that i am gonna do today is to shower and then, run along to bed.
hopefully, sweet dreams.
goodnights to all.

**edited.
this is part2 i supposed.
i couldn't sleep.
i got so much to say.
but nobody to confide with so i am gonna rant everything out here.
it have only been _days, and i am going crazy.
i thought yesterday will be again, 'the perfect day'.
grr. it takes courage which i don't have any.
i broke through my fears.
but nonetheless, i got nothing.
i felt so inferior.
the world seems so big and yet i am so small.
gosh. i felt so exposed without any sense of security.
i don't know why but everything seems so mundane.
i don't like it this way.
without me noticing, a teardrop rolled down my cheeks.
whats the reason for all of this.
at the same time, i feel so pathetic.
i am being abandoned.
i am all alone.
who in the world is gonna tell me what to do next.
what is happiness?
what is bliss?
i witnessed them but never once encountered them.
i am bottled up with so much.
teach me how to let them go.
t i got sick and tired of them.

D:

2009-06-16T07:22:00.000-07:00

* funny:D

well, woke up rather early today.
went to the mall in the afternoon alone.
i swear i am not gonna go out alone the next time.
terrible things happened and i called michelle out.
lucky enough, she wasn't working.
waited 2hours for her to reach.
hahas. walked around.
and homed.
i'll reply tags tomorrow.
i am gonna bake now.
goodbyes.

100th post.

2009-06-14T02:52:00.000-07:00

*picture of the day.

so if you have noticed, this is the 100th post for my blog.
went for ballet in the afternoon and teacher forced me to eat a banana.
i lost my stretches.
but kudos to myself.
instead of going home, i went for ballet.
terrible stomach cramps!
!@#$%^&*()_+
also, i changed my display picture.
i can't stop laughing after this was taken.
horrible but funny.
goodbyes:D

:D

2009-06-12T23:37:00.000-07:00

hellos peeps!

well, my grandmother woke me up at 930 in the morning.
and we went out and yadadadah.
to reward myself for being so discipline,
staying at home for the whole of yesterday,
i bought myself a limited edition lipstick.
sounded too old for people like me to buy those kindda thing yea?
but in anyways, i love that lipstick.
its in copper crystal, pinkish kind of color.
the color is just too pretty to restrain myself from buying.
oh man. hahas. i am laughing now.
cause i think this post will end up like craps.
i just finished studying on the chapter, transfer of thermal energy.
nothing much happened today.
in conclusion,
my grandmother woke me up super early and i slept at 4 last night.
in another words, i only got 5++hours of beauty sleep.
i am gonna sleep earlier tonight.
also, i bought something new for myself.
and seriously, i love my grandmother.
because she bought me bird nest.
kekes. rubbish. craps. trash. whatever it is.
i am ending this post here.
thanks for reading.
bye byes:D

*no photos for this post.
my grandmother complained that those photos are too unglam.

random post.

2009-06-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

well, stayed at home for the whole day.
i am greedy real greedy.
i want everyday to be just like yesterday and the day before.
i am feeling so unusual.
also, i have been browsing through my blog.
reading every single post i posted.
i think i have grown alot.
looking back, i didn't know i could be so childish.
i can't believe thats what i typed.
i even start laughing.
hahas. its funny.
anyways, i don't really have appetite for this few days.
but, i am craving for some red bean and Korean rice cake right now.
perhaps with green tea.
thinking of those makes me hungry.
hahas. its weird, i cooked noodles for my brother just now.
and when i saw it, i feel like vomiting.
and i don't know why.
weird eh? heh hehs.
i still can't do a complete center split.
a little more and i'll reach the ground.
but that seems to be my limit.
i guess i will have to stay in that position for 30minutes tomorrow.
and the deadline is on sunday.
i won't want to go through another torturous class.
not knowing what else will teacher do to me.
whatever it is, i know it hurts.
i don't know whats so difficult about center spilt.
i just couldn't do it.
i am okay with my side spilts but not center one.
grr. i am angry. seriously angry.

wonderful day:D

2009-06-11T07:31:00.000-07:00

hellos earthlings:D
well, back to edit this post.
went out with ziming yesterday.
its supposed to be a group outing but the rest just backout in the last minute. D:
but still, had a great day. :D
i have not been watching movie throughout this whole year
and i caught my first one yesterday.
followed by, east coast park.
though i did not eat much yesterday, don't blame me.
blame my stomach.
its not working well this few days.
but people, i am definitely a person you can bring to buffets:D
and we started walking along the beach.
heh hehs. i have never walked like that in my whole entire life.
but i definitely enjoy the walk.
its so funny.
my parents brought me to the beach twice.
once was when i am still a baby, the other was when i am in primary 5.
then, when night falls, we have to walk all the way to the end of the park!
its tiring. very.
so don't ever choose path1. choose2:D
but there is advantage walking like that.
it will help you to burn out lots of calories.
hahas. for so long, i did not really enjoy myself.
and i think i have been smiling and laughing for the whole day.
thank god for what happened yesterday.
and hope that there will be more to come.
when school reopen, everyday will be so boring.
studying on the weekdays then going church on saturdays and ballet on sundays.
boring. anyways,
BALLET UNDER THE STARS.
click on that. anyone wants to go with me?
i will be delighted if you are are willing to.
hope to hear more from you people.
in another words, tagg me!
alrights shall end my post here.
goodbyes:D

i had a date today :D

2009-06-10T05:46:00.000-07:00

well well.
i am back to edit this post.
i had a date today.
hehe.
so i went dating with Isabelle.
she have been a great listening ear.
funn! went out from 1 to 7.
have been staying at home for the past few days.
and finally, i am out.
i am replying tags now.
laziness caused me to be flooded with tags.
will be posting again tomorrow.
goodbyes.
*ilovecoral.

TAGS REPLY.
charmine : i know who you are. :D
yuting : hahas. what a santa mama i have here.
jialin : glad you know you are tagging the most. but i don't see your name on my tagboard anymore. tag me:D
huiyao : thanks for tagging.
l-weixuan : hia!
vanessa : updated:D
shermin : linked:D
junguo : exams are over. sorry for the late reply.
razlina : relinked:D
michelle : met already. update your blog with our photos please. i wanna steal them:D
l-weixuan : relaxed:D
vanessa : told you already:D
l-weixuan : its kindda troublesome to blog daily. but i'll try :D
nasrun : i am still gonna wait. call me stubborn then.
rumin : amen here too. what do you mean by, ' Its __ ___ ?' hahas. it might be what you are thinking of. :D
kellypang: hellos:D
l-weixuan : i am happy now:D
beatrice : hi there. tag more often:D
michelle : yea. love you too.
isabelle : ahahas. i don't wannt become lesbian.
rais : whats niaoz?
shona : smiles:D
jialin : thanks for the concern:D
suhui : i have a great daughter here:D
isabelle : i can conceal them. so you learnt whats concealer today:D
gwendolyn : relinked:D
shermin : cheers:D
shona : yea. i had a date today. jealous eh. hahas.

2009-06-09T00:18:00.000-07:00

i have been trying so hard to forget those incidents.
but everything came back to me.
this have been causing me to feel insomnia for so long.
people have been saying that i am crazy because i wanted to fall sick.
but have you even wondered why.
i hope that those short term misery will put an end to my long term ones.
so many things happened to me.
again and again i was being accused.
and recently, i went for my uncle's funeral whereby, i hid all sadness within myself.
only start to cry when i am alone.
when i can actually get over his death,
i was being accused again.
and soon, people will start saying that i am trying to act like some innocent kids.
maybe i am too sensitive.
whatever people said just got stuck in my head.
and it seems forever.
the harder i try to forget, those images of misery seems to be clearer and clearer.
i am so so tired.
please. please stop torturing me.

...

2009-06-03T22:45:00.000-07:00

i have been neglecting my blog for days.
well, i am busy.
regrets regrets regrets!
if i have a second chance, I'll apologise.
people only learn to cherish when they have lost.
i have been saying this to tonnes of people.
but this haven't got stuck into my head.
i am trying to seriously.
your face was so pale, infact, its white!
but, its alright.
you will forever live in my heart :)
a proper post tomorrow.
had only a pathetic 2hour of sleep last night.
thank you for reading.

D':

2009-05-31T07:53:00.000-07:00

i didn't have the chance to bid you goodbye.
days ago we just had an arguement.
i complained that you talked too much at times.
i am sorry. i am sorry. i am sorry.
i didn't know you will just leave us so sudden.
i did not cherish you.
now that you are gone,
i realised the importance of you.
why didn't you tell us that you are not feeling well?
you are gone.
forever gone.
i promise, i'll miss you.
definitely.
thinking back of how i treated you in the past.
i am sorry. i am sorry. i am sorry.
no matter how much i am crying now, its all pointless.
goodbye.

ballet under the stars :D

2009-05-28T04:23:00.000-07:00

i have been harboring some left over issues from the past.
it caused me to feel insomnia lately.
the stars say now is a good time to address them.
i am finding a process that lets me let go and find peace.
i have been feeling so stressful and tired.
well well.
went out with jingyun for lunch.
ate lots of food and homed.
nothing special happened.
except me falling asleep in the bus.
hehs hehs.
its comfortable.
feeling so tired, with jingyun beside me,
slowly, my eyes began to shut and tahtah!
my head was already on her shoulders.
it has been so long since i really feel peace.
and its great.
i don't why but things have been difficult for me.
people are only looking at superficial stuffs.
but they don't have any idea about the contents.
and i was being blamed again.
all of you say you don't judge a book by its cover.
but its exactly whats happening now.
another day of school and there will be a long break.
kudos to myself:D

100th day.

2009-05-27T08:51:00.000-07:00

its the 100th day.
i have been observing the time.
it will be 101th day in another eight minutes time.
i can't blame anyone for not remembering this.
i think i am the silly one who counted the number of days.
nobody can change the fact that i am growing older and older each day.
wasting time waiting and doing worthless things is just like wasting life.
i am not gonna waste my life.
maybe what malissa said is right.
she did saw you and stuff.
blah. rubbish.
i promise, all this will not bother me anymore.
in any ways, its not gonna affect my mood.
but still, i thank god for your presence.
pictures and tags reply will be up tomorrow.
went out the whole day.
its time to rest.
goodnight peeps:D

peace!

2009-05-24T06:04:00.001-07:00

hey all.
well, went for ballet class today.
and yadadadah.
after class, went out with some of the ballet mates to whitesands.
then, took train and bused home.
bored yea? continue reading. hahas.
on my way back, when i am still in the interchange, waiting for bus 69,
there was this old man who came to me and start talking.
he talked about his perspective of life.
and i find it so cool!
i did not reply or say anything.
i smiled through out the whole conversation.
and i think he is really friendly.
though i only understand half the thingy that he is talking about.
also, he is not like those 'tikos'
he is just frustrated because he have been waiting for the bus for so long.
when the bus finally arrived, everyone rushed into the bus like some mad cows.
i think i am the only one who walked up into the bus.
hehs. and i felt so guilty after boarding the bus.
there is another old man then, who doesn't have a seat.
i thought of giving up my seat for him.
but he never look at my direction, i didn't want to embarrass my myself.
at that point of time thats what i am thinking.
i stared at him until i alighted the bus.
and i think i am really selfish.
if i had called him and directed him to the seat, then maybe he will at least have a seat.
he boarded the bus when he is still in tampines. and the bus is going to bedok!
gahhs. guity!
anyways, i am gonna end my post here.
tags will be repiled tomorrow.
i am so bored!
bye!

D:

2009-05-21T23:30:00.000-07:00

i am upset, super upset.
i have been waiting and counting down to that day.
one day after another, waiting and waiting.
it had been 32 days since i know that you will be coming.
i waited and waited.
gahhs. now, its left with three days and its cancelled.
i think i am getting used to it.
it has always been like this since the first outing we planned.
i can't blame anybody.
i am just being too difficult.
also, results were disappointing.
its all about myself.
i did not work hard.
i will definitely do better if i paid more attention in class.
i am upset, super upset.

i need a fantasy island.

2009-05-21T02:47:00.000-07:00

hellos all.

well, went to school today.
tones of people did not attend school.
the whole school went out to Singapore Discovery Centre for a performance.
stayed there for the whole day.
learnt new things too.
Junyuan got talent is really entertaining.
enjoyed the whole performance.
i think my schoolmates did well.
to perform on stage needs lots of courage and determination.
well done! hahas.
my wishful thinking can easily begin to over shadow whats really occuring.
its time for a reality check.
i'll let the pictures to continue with this post then.

i can't get over it.

2009-05-19T06:20:00.000-07:00

the process of meeting, falling in love and staying together can seem insurmountably complicated.
however, its really just a chain of tiny and very easily accomplished steps.
these two sentences kept repeating in my mind.
walking in the streets, looking at couples..
hahs. i am celebrating singledom!
thinking about all the things that i can do.
change my plans on the spur of the moment.
wahas! life is great.
moreover, exams are officially over.
no more feeling insomnia.
also, stop complaining that my blog is boring.
cause i will be updating almost everyday w/ pictures, hopefully.
the photos below may look almost the same but still,
i am putting some effort to actually upload them here.
so, enjoy:D

michelle thinks that i am silly to keep everything bottled up inside myself.

18may2009.

2009-05-18T04:32:00.000-07:00

i can't believe this.
i am actually watching pokemon just now.
and spiderman right now.
hahas. well, having my last paper tomorrow.
its so stressful having exams almost everyday.
and POA is such a killer.
escaping my regular routine is always on my mind.
i have been feeling overloaded with commitments.
i haven't had time to just chill out with my friends.
i am starting to burn out.
picturing a carefree beach getaway is actually my brain's way of giving myself time off.
so i am gonna let myself get the real thing soon.
holidays were round the corner.
another week to go.
jiayous!
i miss you terribly. another 7 days to go. I'll endure:D

Love Story Meets Viva La Vida

2009-05-14T01:13:00.000-07:00

well, i broke my own promise.
i am blogging now.
hahas. also, my mom did not confiscate my lappy.
in some ways, i can't live without it.
anyways, Love story meets viva la vida.
awesome isn't it?
i fell in love with it the first time i heard it.
how i wish i knew someone who plays the piano like that.
its so cool.
there will be a bbq party for dance instructor tomorrow.
finally. i can enjoy myself.
it has been so long.
waking up everyday at 5, being people's alarm clock.
calling them. afraid that they will miss their exams,
i am stressed out.
i am so gonna find a quiet place and shout out loud.

4may :D

2009-05-04T05:21:00.000-07:00

hey people!
heeha.
craps.
oh well, exams are round the corner.
so i'll be away.
i pleaded my mom to confiscate my lappy.
and fortunately, she agreed:D
so, stay tune for the next update on 20may:D
16days to go. jiayous!

shrugs.

2009-05-03T08:43:00.000-07:00

many times, i wanted to post something here.
but its all positive things that were happening.
the clock haven't struck 12.
so its still sunday, 3rd may.
i am feeling so down.
i saw how fragile my grandfather was.
he can't even walk properly anymore.
and sometimes, i even argue with him.
thinking back, he is doing all that for our own good.
and my mother,she was so heart broken.
and yet, i am taking things for granted.
everyone is getting older each day.
nobody can predict life.
nobody knows what is gonna happen tomorrow.
who knows, i may be dead.
and what i did is arguing and arguing.
i wasted so much time.
its time to wake up.
but in any ways, i am still annoying.
D:

its a solid GOLD.

2009-04-24T22:54:00.000-07:00

WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.
WE GOT GOLD. WE GOT GOLD.

well, will be staying at home for the whole day.
since nobody ask me out.
people! start asking me out.
i know i am always busy.
but i really want to go out.
it has been so long since i really have the time to do my own stuffs.
its such a burden to work.
but you never understand what i am trying to say.
i know you can manage your time better than i do.
but everyone have their own choices.
you don't have to scream at me.
it just don't feel right.
anyways, there will be a performance tomorrow.
so i am not attending ballet.
ballet mates who read this, please pass a message to teacher.
ROAR! it has been a long time since i reply to those tags.
now its all accumulated till so much.
i'll reply to all tags with names i am familiar with.
i mom taught me not to talk to strangers.
so start naming yourself.
bye.

TAGS REPLY.
-/J.IALIN: hia! thanks for the tags too:D
alex: i forgotten where we stopped.
suhui: i'll tag you later. promise:D
Vanessa: you have to be strong. and stop spraining your leg clumsy girl. hahas. hope to see you soon:D
charmaine: hahas. you are charmaine!
-/J.IALIN: tags tags tags. i will tag on your board later.
Isabelle: Isabelle! you are loved too:D
suhui: hellos. beloved daughter! and i am no longer emo-ing. hahas.
Liyana: linked:D
Liling: Relinked:D
weiying: you don't have to plead me to link you. hahas. linked:D
GWEN♥: relinked:D
Jialin♥Isabell: i'll name myself isabell♥jialin. make sure you know who i am. hahas.
YUTING: oopsy! sorry. come'on leave your URL behind i'll link you.
Isabel: tagged you.
Katherine(:: linked.
suhui: syf ended. sorry for the late reply. D:
♥Jialin: we know we will definitely get gold. and indeed, we got gold. D:
PEARLYN(:: relinked:D
Isabelle:hia! twinsister! i am glad that you love me. cause i love you too:D
♥Jialin: loves loves loves! :D

anxiety.

2009-04-21T04:19:00.000-07:00

after so long of practice, SYF is officially over.
results will be out tomorrow.
was super anxious.
also, trybe will be coming to school again.
heehs :D
i am happy.
really happy.
although, there are tonnes of things that are left uncompleted,
but to me, its another chance to explore.
life isn't that dull yea?
thanks for reading this short post.
will post again tomorrow with SYF results:D
bye people.

cherish.

2009-04-14T04:18:00.000-07:00

i am real moody this few days.
have been thinking of tonnes of things.
yesterday, blackout!
people who knew me should know that i am actually timid.
i am afraid of darkness.
i was at home and kept myself in the room.
suddenly, darkness filled my surroundings.
at that moment, i am all alone.
i was so terribly scared.
hoping that somebody will be with me.
but there is nobody.
i have to bring myself up to the door.
its such a terrible experience.
i miss those days.
i wanted to go back so much.
learning to forget is just too hard.
i am losing faith.
each day, i have to ensure that i smile before leaving house.
deep inside, its miserable.
but you knew nothing.

disappointments overwhelmed me once again.

2009-03-31T07:43:00.000-07:00

people only learn to cherish when things are gone.

flashbacks starts whenever i close my eyes.

i fake a smile so you won't see.

arguments arises again and again.

its so tiring.

i abhor conflicts.

i tried to laugh it out but it won't work.

i am learning to cherish every moment on earth.

chances were only given once.

i appreciate whatever you have left for me.

you are gone. forever gone.

i am so tired.

i missed it again.

2009-03-26T08:15:00.000-07:00

i missed 1111 consistently for three days.

people have been asking me, whats so special about 1111.

all i could say is its very important to me.

in each life, there is only two chances everyday for you.

its totally impossible for me to enjoy that special moment in school.

so, i am only left with one chance, night time.

okays, its all rubbish.

i think i am the only one who understands what i am trying to say.

life is dull.

i don't see the point of being online almost everyday till late night.

nobody was even chatting with me :(

i don't really like to start conversations.

sad sad sad!

everybody was busy with their own stuffs.

well, tomorrow there will be rehearsal in NUS till 9pm.

its gonna be a long day.

and i will miss tuition.

on saturday, there will be a 4hour dance practice.

only chosen people have to attend due to limited space.

and i was chosen!

gahhs!

i think i will have to consult a doctor real soon.

the health department is not working well.

i am so so upset.

goodbye people.

school was hell.

2009-03-24T04:40:00.000-07:00

well, attended school as usual.

and its cca day too.

there were tests today.

chemistry and english.

i didn't study anything!

dreadful. both tests were badly done.

wrote rubbish.

then, was locked in school to attend cca.

i am now suffering from physical fatigue!

and there is PE tomorrow.

school had never failed to make me feel stress and tired.

will be sleeping soon, although its only 748.

goodbyes people.

TAGS REPLY.
shona : repiled:D
suhui : hellos!
zhenyu : i am honoured to have you back in my tagboard. hahas. tag me again real soon:D
alex : i didn't reply is because there is this mario or something to spamed me. making me so upset that i don't feel like replying. hahas.
wuming : its obvious who you are, goldfish! hahas. you are the only one who will use this name. hahas.
shona : hahas. sure:D
weixuan : yoyo! hahas. orhorh! today didn't attend school huh? school was so boring today!
sabrina : relinked:D

rainbows were too beautiful (:

2009-03-21T05:34:00.000-07:00

went to school for dance practice this morning.

went to bugis with jingyun and weiying after that.

we shopped at OG!

bought lots of snacks.

hahas. its fun though.

anyways, when we were in the bus heading home,

i saw a rainbow! a huge one.

terribly beautiful.

this is the third time i saw rainbow.

i was like shouting when i saw one.

people were staring at me.

i know its a childish act but its too tempting.

i can't resist temptations!

hahas. pictures will tell you alot more.

enjoy!

hope vanessa is fine.

2009-03-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

went out with sharifah today.

enjoyed myself though its a short trip.

well, i miss trybe.

and of course my facilitator.

it had been 3 weeks and 6 days since trybe ended

and 2 weeks since the group last met our facilitator.

ziming claimed that he is free this afternoon.

and not long after i sent him another message,

he replied stating that he is no longer free:(

jireh is meeting up with his group today.

i am so so jealous!

i understand that he is busy.

but i just have to rant it out.

well, going to hospital tomorrow in the morning.

so i have to sleep early.

goodbyes people:D

isabell is missing school.

2009-03-17T07:58:00.000-07:00

well, its only the second day of holiday and i am bored already.

i am starting to miss peoples :(

sigh! i don't mind if there is more dance practices.

as long i live life to the fullest.

staying at home the whole day is meaningless.

i stayed at home just watching korean dramas.

can't even concentrate on my homeworks.

i haven't even touch one of them.

but if there is school, stress will be overwhelming me.

i wanted to catch a horror movie in the cinemas.

but i don't know who to call along.

nobody wants to watch movies with me.

especially a horror movie!

i think i made a great impact in their lives.

you know who you are.

so, anybody wants to watch horror movie with me? msg me:D

hahs. anyways, in four weeks time, it will be SYF.

claps* hahas.

i will update with pictures the next time.

goodbyes people.

TAGS REPLY.

suhui : taken out already:D

andy : yea! i remember. the one with thick brows:D linked you already. link me back:D

weixuan : you will soon get used to it. hahs. meet up soon:D

vanessa : i visited the ballet blog. hahas. adorable! anyways, i can't really remember the title of the song. so sorry:(

suhui : yay! you have been reading my blog. hahas. tag me again:D

yuting : you did not leave your blog url behind! hahas. hellos anyways.

mundd : well, alrights. anyways, may doesn't belong to me. therefore, don't say that she is mine. i don't even know who she is. hahas. and she did not really tag me already. so i think its peace?

pathetic little toe nail.

2009-03-14T06:06:00.000-07:00

woke up at 630 this morning.

met jingyun and weiying for breakfast.

strolled around the market area and off to cca.

had dance practice today but i did not get to dance.

my second toe on my left just sort of drop off.

moral of the story, wear dance slippers when you have practices.

hohos. i learnt my lesson.

also, went for manicure with weixuan too.

its damn fun.

hahas. enjoyed myself alot.

was actually planning to do pedicure too.

but one toe nail was missing.

hahas. i am contented with things that happened today.

thank you for reading!

goodbyes.

TAGS REPLY.

mundd : hahas. thanks for the kind understanding. anyways, you haven't intro yourself. you are?

passer-by : i am smiling almost everyday. come'on just tell me who you are.

sharifah : relinked already:D

may : heys he is already stopping. please stop the arguments too? hahas. chill!

jialin : replied:D

weixuan : hahas. so how did you manage to tag me?

11March2009:D

2009-03-11T02:37:00.000-07:00

i did something good today.
so i am in a good mood for the time being.
shall not elaborate. i am damn lazy right now.
anyways, tiamhong lost his wallet today.
this is the third case since school started.
seriously, keep your belongings well people.
you won't know when is it gonna be your turn to lose something.
and please this is my blog.
i have rights to stop arguments right?
i hated arguments, so break it off.
cause the tagboard belongs to me.
hahas. its not very healthy to actually criticize each other like that.
each of you are unique in your own ways.
so smiles and peace man!

i am so annoyed by you.

2009-03-09T04:41:00.000-07:00

can't you see that i am actually avoiding you?

i didn't want to talk to you.

you have caused enough troubles for me.

i had enough.

i don't like any of these.

people tend to regret what they did after things happened.

and i am one of those.

i regretted.

i shouldn't have even speak a word to you.

you have caused me to become a trouble magnet.

i don't like this either.

attracting those unnecessary trouble.

oh man.

you always thought only for yourself.

have you even try to stand on my position to think?

now i was blamed for not handling this problem sensibly.

my grades dropped worrying about this matter.

the day of truth will come soon.

you shall regret whatever you did.

i don't care if you hate me or something.

i am not going to let myself becoming a tool of yours.

you used me once.

i will forgive but will never forget.

you broke my trust, everything will not be the same anymore.

all that i am just asking, is peace.

i am happy :)

2009-03-08T03:20:00.001-07:00

went to Fullerton hotel this afternoon for lunch with family.
i love that place.
beautiful and their services were great.
went back home to change and out to Tmall with G.ma.
bought lots of stuffs and homed.
also, i realised that arguments often arise in my blog.
oh why?
anyways, i know that this is a very short post.
i am feeling very very tired for no reasons.
so, i will let the photos to take over now.

disappointments.

2009-03-07T03:37:00.000-08:00

went for ballet exam today.
was so disappointed.
i was so well-prepared but, nervousness overwhelm me.
just hope that, when i get my cert, i will be smiling.
ballet exam was finally over.
soon, it will be SYF.
and i will be able to get more sleep after everything is over:D
this way, i won't be so screwed up.
seriously, i know what i am supposed to do during exam.
but my body just moved the opposite way.
shrieks!
its all history for now.
nobody will be able to change it.
tomorrow will be a better day.
goodbye people♥

TAGS REPLY.

rumin : i did post about you. hahas. you have always been my superhero:D

passer-by : name yourself. it seems to be like the same person over and over again. so, tell me your beautiful name.

suhui : thanks for your concern:D

may : oh man. there is tons of may in my life. which may are you? also, who is mudd? hahas. confusing.

requested images:D

awaiting for miracles.

2009-03-06T06:27:00.000-08:00

there will be miracles when you believe.

though hope is frail.

its hard to kill.

who knows what miracles.

you can achieve.

when you believe.

somehow you will.

you will when you believe.

-Leon Jackson, when you believe.

i'll be having ballet exam tomorrow.

i am already feeling so anxious.

ongrumin is the only one who wish me lucks for my exam tomorrow.

touched and much appreciated.

just hope that i can excel tomorrow.

i need a holiday badly.

i think there are white hairs are growing on my head already.

i can't sleep last night.

thinking that there is tests today.

but there is none.

and was feeling so tired in school.

i wanna go to the beach again.

someone please bring me there.

strolling along the seaside.

letting myself to be away from stress.

who wants to be my superhero?

hahas. well, attended school.

went for cca and bruises reappeared.

the old ones have not recover yet though.

dancing is really tough huh.

in a few weeks time, i will be enjoying freedom again.

heavenly!

for now, it feels like a little bird being trapped in a cage.

ilove people around me.

goodnights:D

TAGS REPLY

passer-by : please name yourself. i went for the meet-the-parents session already.

unknw : please name yourself. i know you have a beautiful name. what is it that is troubling you? what did i do to not gain your trust?

i am treasuring every moments.

2009-03-05T04:45:00.000-08:00

met ziming and co.
after school, hop up into his car and *zooooom*
hahas. he drove so fast that sharifah got giddy in his car.
he drove us to east coast park.
we settled down and start chatting.
he brought a friend along too.
forgotten whats her name.
chatted for a hour plus.
ziming wanted to leave that place.
he thinks that its boring.
cause we were so quiet.
seriously, at that point of time,
my brain wasn't functioning.

was tired but felt so relaxed.
enjoying the breeze.
did i ever mention that i love going to beach?
but definitely not in school uniform.

he drove us back to Tmall area and left.

he was rushing us out of car.

us refers to clement, sharifah and me.

took our bags and he left.

not even giving us a chance and say goodbyes:(

can't blame him.

tons of cars behind.

we stroll around and homed.

TAGS REPLY.

darren : when i am free. we will meet up soon. DEFINITELY:D

mund : oh okays. its alright. thanks anyways:D

beatrice : relinked:D

i am back:D

2009-03-03T03:41:00.000-08:00

hellos people.

i am finally back.

did not use my lappy for two days.

and i was already like dying.

i am online for about an hour in msn and nobody talk to me:(

boredom is over taking me.

in just two days, my email was flooded with new mails.

i didn't know people like to email me so much.

hahas. jokes.

also, pictures will be uploaded tomorrow.

lazy you see.

hahas. things happened as though you were watching television.

its so dramatic and fast and funny.

there were lots of things happened in school.

troubles after troubles.

life was so hash to me.

anyways, its tuesday again.

and i am back home with tired legs and arms and last but not least, injuries.

how i hope that this will be the last torturous practice.

went to school with panda eyes.

all because of the makeup yesterday.

i washed thoroughly with makeup remover before i sleep last night.

but, there is still eye makeup on.

moral of the story, not to use waterproof makeup the next time.

hahas. promised myself to finish up homeworks all by today.

well, tired. goodbye people:D

TAGS REPLY.

ben : are you sure? oh well, speechless.

mund : oh please, i need a translator

gladys : relinked already dear:D

marco low : oh please. stop this crap. i know you wasn't him. i won't check IP. even if its really you, don't be silly. get on with life. i don't want to be in any trouble anymore. i wanted peace in life. the previous one has already made me feel so terrible and disturbed. so please, stop creating trouble for me.

rumin : hahas. totally agree to it:D

its such a bad day.

2009-02-28T08:06:00.001-08:00

things turned out to be so bad today.

first thing in the morning,

hope to reach ballet on time as i am always late and have to cab down.

but today, forgotten what time is ballet starting,

woke up super early, prepared and leave home.

thinking that ballet starts at 11.

i did not attend cca too.

but when i reached the community centre,

i remembered that it starts at 1145.

i was one hour earlier.

my brain was playing tricks with me.

ballet was okay and yadahdahdah.

was supposedly meeting ziming and group.

but ziming can't make it so, cancelled:(

i seriously miss him already.

sharifah doesn't have a phone with her,

so, waited for her at train station.

met her and decided to go bugis at first.

but i suggested to go changi airport.

haven't been there for so long.

and endded up, she lost her wallet.

she was a very fragile girl.

my heart shattered when seeing her cry.

she was really afraid of her mother.

hope that some kind hearted soul will return her the wallet.

she was seriously upset.

AMEN AMEN AMEN!

everything will turn out fine right?

anyways, i will be away for two days.

i won't be in singapore.

and of course i won't be able to attend school on monday.

will be back by tuesday i hope.

bye people. i will miss all of you.

and yes, all of you:D

i saw a huge huge rainbow!

2009-02-26T03:39:00.000-08:00

rainbows were beautiful.

i saw two. its huge!

i was jumping up and down when i saw it.

the ground was still wet, and i almost fall.

little things like this can really make me very very happy.

hohos. i know its silly.

i didn't bring my phone along.

i did not manage to take down beautiful moments in my life.

i love that rainbow.

i want to see it again.

simply stunning!

it will be my ballet exam next week.

i can feel the anxiety within myself.

what if i forgotten my steps?

what if i fall?

i am a very clumsy person.

i will get nervous on important dates.

i love to embarrass myself unwillingly.

oh god! who is gonna save me?

school is causing me to be so stress.

chemistry TA tomorrow :(

may god bless me.

bye people.

TAGS REPLY.

pearlyn & vanessa & yishian & kelly : relinked:D

suhui : i am trying to. thanks for the concern anyways:D

mudd : you are?

alex : oh well, you are in your own conversation. i don't understand.

leonard : hellos sister! when are you gonna create another blog? oh man! we haven't meet up for ages. meet up real soon:D

i am seriously afraid of returning to school.

2009-02-22T05:22:00.000-08:00

i have received apologies.

and i think its time to stop this crap.

school is going to start tomorrow.

whereby, you have to carry heavy bags to school, homeworks, cca and teachers' rantings.

i am afraid of all this.

going to school is really a torture.

i don't enjoy cca as before.

its really tiring.

i will have either bruises or muscle aches after every practice.

even my parents object me to attend dance practices.

i know my body well,

this workout is seriously torturous.

but once sfy is over, i will have freedom.

i can go out on saturdays and enjoy cca a little more.

ballet exam is round the corner too.

STRESSED!

i don't know how much more i can endure.

but just have to continue the marathon until everything ends.

all i could do, is to pamper myself a little more.

making everyday a little happier.

i spent 2 hours just now to upload photos into facebook.

and that pathetic 2hours was wasted.

not even one of the pictures was successful.

i tried using picnik and its not helping.

i tried re-uploading, useless.

i will try photobucket the next time.

by using another computer, this lappy has a little prob.

but to me its still good because its mine.

hahas. you should be laughing too.

laughing is contagious!

i still can't forget trybe workshop.

each day, i woke up, i felt weird.

i just hope that this feeling will go off sooner or later.

cause i don't feel good.

i know i miss everything.

anyways, i am not going to reply tags.

cause its a little messy now.

replying will start again once i feel like it.

if you have managed to read till here,

it just proves that you are as bored as i am.

bye people.

email me (:

2009-02-21T05:25:00.000-08:00

i am currently very annoyed and disturbed by the tags going on.
here are all my collections.

( the ones highlighted are serious ones:D )
20 Feb 09, 20:13JoJo,♥: Not criticizing thm but just that maybe th problem lies with you. You love being innocent and th extra one. How sad, are u so lacked of love? Need someone to talk to?
20 Feb 09, 20:12JoJo,♥: Didn't ur brains teach u to have some common sense tht becoming a third party is bad? Acting innocent as if everything was Jiamin fault is also bad. Tsk, haven't ur teachers or parents taught u well?
21 Feb 09, 10:08JoJo,♥: And if i didn't respect her, i'll be saying alot of things abt her and scolding vulgaraties at her ardy lah -.-
21 Feb 09, 10:07JoJo,♥: Did i say i arguing, Michelle? I was just stating facts and waking isabell up from her senses.
20 Feb 09, 21:34passer by: please lar. those dont know what is going on or whatever, please dont act as if you know.. and is isabell thinking, she damn stupid enough to believe sms..
20 Feb 09, 21:31JoJo,♥: LOL!
20 Feb 09, 21:28passer by: 胸大无脑
20 Feb 09, 21:17passer by: maybe isabell was innocent too,but what about her?did anyone actually think for her b4? b4 you guys said anything when you dont even know what happend?
20 Feb 09, 21:15passer by: yet,still ranked up.she is innocent too.she don even know what the hell is happening.she just listened to what people said.thats why marco scolded her stupid.
20 Feb 09, 21:14passer by: We didn even said that it was isabell's fault in the first place. imagine you were her, how wil you feel?You helped isabell,yes. but hello do you know what's happening allalongnow? she didn accuse her
20 Feb 09, 21:05JoJo,♥: So are you also trying to say that it's JM's fault? I knw u're helping ur friend and i am also. But pls get th facts right first yeah?
20 Feb 09, 21:01JoJo,♥: Are you calling urself dumb? Thats why ur name is put down as dumb? So contradicting, tsk. Did i say tht it was entirely her fault? C'mon, read properly, dumb -.-
20 Feb 09, 20:16JoJo,♥: So pls ask urself wht went wrong before pointing urself at others. So, please grow up.
20 Feb 09, 20:16JoJo,♥: I thot only primary sch kids would know how to twist and turn. Tsk, its ardy th 21st century so pls grow up. Not everyone can stand ur "innocence".
20 Feb 09, 20:14JoJo,♥: If u wanna meet thm thn dont last minute back out. And stop saying that they bully u whn they didnt even do anything -.- Its pure childish and lame -.-
20 Feb 09, 20:13JoJo,♥: Go find some hotline like 1800-i-need-love-badly. Maybe it will do u some good and get some sense back into u agn.
can (JoJo,♥ & Passer by) help me decide if i should make a police report?
you can search on the web for more details.

you won't want to have criminal records at this young age.
i have read many reports that says that local police can help track down names and addresses from ip addresses.
you have exactly 48hrs to send me an apology email with your name and blog/friendster/facebook (to verify ur real name).

my email : xiian-yiing@hotmail.com
you decide. its your own criminal record. smiles(:
by then, if i recieve no response, so sorry=D

life is full of ups and down.

2009-02-19T23:05:00.000-08:00

went to school this morning.

feeling really sleepy.

woke up earlier than usual.

was glad that i actually brought all the stuffs i need, to school.

this made me recall about the recent incident.

on 13feb, the school was celebrating venlentines.

so, the day before, stayed up at night baking cookies.

slept only at three.

the next day, overslept.

i packed everything.

and put it beside my school bag.

when going out, i forgotten to bring the bag of cookies i prepared for my friends.

luckily, amanda was at my house.

so, she delievered them to my school.

credits to amanda, she helped lots (:

anyways, back to topic, met sarifah and clement this morning.

made a super big card for our facilitator, ziming.

hahas. he claimed that he was touched.

i didn't want to attend school next week.

was so used to life this week.

even though, i laugh, cried, was furious, but seriously, i enjoyed this workshop.

our facilitator was great too.

he was super polite today.

still remembering, the first day when i attend the workshop.

i didn' want to go for the second day.

but i went eventually.

after the workshop, homed.

serious stuffs happened today.

well, is there a trend that states,

secondary three students must undergo being accused?

this is the second time i was being accused.

life is seriously hard.

well, i was really innocent like the other time when i was being accused.

i didn't like arguements.

i don't like thrid party either.

so, i wouldn't let myself be one.

so, please stop thinking too much.

i am sorry if i offended you at times.

but, seriously, i was furious just now.

TAGS REPLY.

Jeannie : lol. you said goldfish is nice. hahas.

Darren : soon! after all my competitions and exams:D

Elden : relinked:D

iFah :linked:D

i am going to be sick.

2009-02-16T04:43:00.000-08:00

well, did enjoy school for some while.

i was allocated to the orange bows group.

but wasn't feeing well anymore.

i felt like puking since late afternoon.

i am suffering from indigestion.

i just ate donuts and the lunch i had today.

acttually, there were some picture that i wanted to post.

but due to my current state,

continuing this post seems difficult already.

oh well, maybe i was drenched just now in the rain.

or i just don't have enough sleep.

whatever it is, i am tired.

i will still be going school tomorrow.

so, goodbye people.

i am sleeping now:D

pictures tell a thousand words.

2009-02-15T05:09:00.000-08:00

you won't be able to imagine how bored we were on the bus.

so took tons of photos that we almost missed our stop.

there were actually some more photos that i wanted to post.

but jingyun object to it.

its too unglam.

went to bugis as jingyun wanted to get shades and a bag.
didn't get anything for myself.
except for the food and drinks that gave me energy to continue typing.
well, actually wanted to get the blingblings for my phone.
but, people who know me will know that i have itchy hands.
i will pluck them out one day and its gonna spoil the whole look of my phone.

people kept staring at me.

did i dress weirdly today?

i promised not to go there again without a guy.
it has been long eversince, i last pamered myself.
one day, gonna have a shopping day out with amanda, the shopping queen.

when returning, we sat at the back of the bus.

so, people kept turning around to see what we were doing.

whats wrong with taking photos?

except for the shutter sound.*kacah*

when we were rushing down the stairs in the bus,
jingyun almost mistook a bald head as the handle.
she almost grabed it as, she can't really balanced.

i have read my tag board and i am so so touched.

there are frinds around me that actually stand up for me.

THANK YOU PEOPLE!

£but the reactions of you people are realy funny.

hahas. making me laugh non-stop.

thinking back, its still making me laugh.

TAGS REPLY.

Jiamin : oh fine! so what do you want me to call you? i find g.jiamin is so unique okays. anyways, my answer to all your questions, depends! happy valentines too:D

Xiubin : Thank you for your tag. its so honoured t have you here:D

Amanda : thank you for your spamming. its fun to have you tagging my board. your tags ae simply funny!

Yishian : aww.. she is jus being shy. she didn't want to share her name with us.

£ : you are? may god bless you too:D

Rumin : ONG AHZHU. stop your big boobs theorem. its kindda weird to say it here.

Ifah : hellos sharifah. was more tha glad that you enjoyed the cookies:D

Ben : oh well, who is the slowpoke now?

its valentine's day

2009-02-14T01:27:00.000-08:00

i find it alittle dumb of me to actually close my blog.

i was finding peace within myself.

but in this way, i will be neglecting my daily reader, rumin:}

she claims that she was one.

anyways,

in the morning, went to school for cca.

was supposedly going for ballet.

but, teacher zhao did not allow us to leave.

the us that i was refering to, was me and gina.

and yadadah yadahdah yadadah.

after three hours of continuous practice.

my body was now aching.

especially my left arm.

well, after that went home to change and everything.

and went out with g.jiamin.

and homed.

well, its valentine's day.

everyone was embraced with love yea?

true love tends to make each day a little brighter.

agree to the above statement?

i do agree.

well, i know its boring so i am ending here.

happy valentine's day.

xoxo,

bells

TAGS REPLY.

Darren : linked:D

Amanda : tagged:D

Eleanor : hellos back:D

Ben : heys you. i am fast okays.

A-ma : mu-ye-x its our language yea? i bet there's no one else who understands:D

Maxxy : oh well, max right? do tag me again:D

Ifah : i was figuring whats your name. cause i don't understand your short cut. do tag me again:D

Weixuan : chimerlogy?! hahas. happy valentines:D

Isabelle : linked:D

unknown : its valentines. don't be such a mood spoiler. i don't welcome unfriendly people(like you) i won't delete your tags in case, you wanted to apologise. also, i wanted to take this chance to explain myself. i did not get involved in any relationships. so, don't jump to conclusions and criticize me. anyways, thanks for supporting my tag board. its quite alive now. happy valentine's day:D

Suhui : happy valentines too:D

life is terrible.

2009-02-13T04:43:00.000-08:00

i am always here.
ignoring my presence doesn't makes any sense.
you knew the fact all along.
i hated myself for being existing in this world.
my heart ache for the first time ever.
i had always been myself.
i didn't try to act like somebody else.
things happened the way i didn't want it to.
but i can't help either.
people had always thought of themselves first before others.
but, i am human too.
i have feelings like you do.
for now, avoiding is the only way out.
how i wish nothing had ever happened.

aren't rainbows supposed to be colorful?

2009-02-11T04:09:00.000-08:00

rainbows aren't colorful anymore.

just dull so dull.

tears drop like a running tap.

the clouds weren't moving anymore.

i felt so abandon, leaving only myself to continue the marathon.

isn't life just about being accused and all?

sometimes, being yourself just don't help at all.

people just don't trust you.

tuesdays are cca days.

2009-02-10T03:52:00.000-08:00

its tuesday again.

tuesdays are cca days.

well, took back my chemisrty paper.

zhenyu, i got 8marks!

happy now?

i listened to you.

hahas. anyways, changed blog song again.

i went to imeem and this is what i found.

angel said that the previous song sounded sleepy.

so i changed again.

anyways, there will be maths TA tomorrow.

i am too tired to study.

i am very very tired.

goodnights people.

tags will be replied in the next update.

its just your luck to tag at a lazy bum's blog.

tsk tsk! bad choice.

2009-02-09T05:19:00.000-08:00

the first photo taken by my phone.

its ugly, i know.

it was taken yesterday at the coffee shop near home.

my father was curious and *kacah*

the photo was taken.

well, my lips were oily.

my hair was messy.

my pose was ugly.

but its the first photo.

so, decided to post here.

i will delete it anyways.

do laugh at it, if you need to.

from now onwards,

i can post lots of photos in my blog.

hahas. i don't wish to continue.

i still have a POA homework.

goodnights people:D

speechless.

2009-02-06T05:06:00.001-08:00

went for tuition just now.

on my way back home,

there's a cat again.

have to walk one big round to reach home.

tomorrow, there will be dance practice in school.

and at 10++, will be rushing home to wash up.

and off to ballet.

and Sunday ballet again.

i have to be this busy for the next 7-9weeks.

i won't get enough sleep.

after SFY ended, finished ballet exam,

and hohos.

i will be free.

i will get back my freedom again.

i slept late every night.

anyways, i found my history book.

its found in between weixuan's book.

tired!

its so not peaceful here.

i cannot concentrate on this.

arguments between my mother and brother.

noisy. I'll stop here.

byes.

WHEN THE LAMB FALLS IN LOVE WITH THE LION.

THE LAMB WILL NOT DIE.

SO, YOU PEOPLE STOP CURSING THE LAMB.

THE LION WILL NOT HURT THE LAMB CAUSE HE LOVES THE LAMB.

F.I.V

2009-02-05T06:47:00.000-08:00

well, i came back to post.

now, i have reasons to be afraid of cats.

don't get bitten by a cat.

there is a virus within cats called F.I.V.(Feline Immumodeficiency Virus)

its simillar to AIDs.

FIV is a retrovirus in the same family as the human AIDS virus,

with a few significant differences.

It is estimated that in the United States,

2% of cats are infected with the FIV virus.

Saliva to blood (biting) is the primary source of spreading the virus,

and it is unlikely (but not impossible) that cats will spread FIV by drinking or eating out of the same food dish,

or by mutual grooming.

It is not surprising that outdoor cats are particularly susceptible to the virus,

and the best way to prevent infection with FIV virus is to ensure that your cat stays indoors. which eliminates the possibility of contact with FIV cats.

Another, less common means of transmission is from the mother cat (Queen) to her kittens during gestation,

during birth,

or by nursing.

There is comfort in the fact that not all FIV queens pass the virus on to their kittens.

This phenomenon is not fully understood,

but all kittens from FIV mothers should be tested for the FIV antibodies after six months.

So, stay away from cats:D

TAGS REPLY.

alex : but seriously, i don't sense it :D

ben : you won't get that chance. and, i am changing soon. CHILL!

andrea & vanessa : relinked :D

eleanor : linked :D

silent : you are?

rumin : i cannot navigate your blog. i don't know why D:

zhenyu : replied.

Damn it.

2009-02-05T03:45:00.000-08:00

oh well,

can you believe it?

i think i am just too timid.

so, i learnt my lesson.

i should not go out alone anymore.

why are there animals in this world?

dumb dumb animals freak me out.

i went to deposit money just now.

i accompanied jingyun to get her stuffs for tomorrow.

and oh man, on my way back home,

i was thirsty.

so, i got a drink from the mart.

and that dumb dumb cat came running after me.

oh god, why are there hungry little animals in this world.

since they could grow so big,

there must be some kind hearted souls who fed them.

so i don't see why they should be hungry all the time.

damn it! feed the cats or dogs or whatever.

why am i born timid?

can't i be little more brave?

i have to learn to accept facts.

also, i lost my history textbook.

oh god.

trouble after trouble.

i learnt my lesson again.

i will bring my book home from today onwards.

but they were all so heavy.

or maybe i should get a locker.

i know i am agitated at this point of time.

but seriously, i have not recover from my shock.

i will not reply tags yet.

because my brain just cannot work properly.

valentine's day is 11 days away.

2009-02-03T04:08:00.000-08:00

"The best and most beautiful things in world cannot be seen,

nor touched..

but are felt in the heart."

valentine's day is round the corner.

2days after valentine's day,

will be obs camp.

hahas.

Pre-orders for valentine gifts!

its suppose to be a joke.

please laugh people!

well, i am tired, very very tired.

slept late this few days.

i am gonna sleep at 945pm tonight.

its a promise i made for myself.

went for cca just now.

lots of people watching.

it felt so weird.

preferred practices on saturdays.

the practice today, was torturing.

tired, very tired.

i stated twice that i am tired.

so can you imagine how tired i am?

not going to do homeworks tonight.

did i mention that i am very disappointed in myself?

i realised that i did not get my desired marks for all my tests.

especially chemistry.

i got 4/10.

did not study though.

thought that i am able to cope.

the higher i expect, the harder i will fall.

life is hard.

you just can't sleep whole day dreaming that money will fall from sky.

i didn't want to attend school tomorrow.

there will be PE.

but i am not sick.

my parents will urge me to go.

also, its kindda stupid skipping school just for PE.

hence, i have to attend school.

BORING. my blog is dull, i know.

might be change to livejournal.

their functions seems to be better.

will update soon.

buhbyes.

i spent half hour to type this post.

slow huh?

neverminds.

my blog is as dead as my phone.

2009-01-30T06:33:00.000-08:00

well, well. this week is packed with so many things.

Monday 26.jan.2009

its new year!

its the day when my father drove our family to malaysia to visit my relatives.

and the day whereby my father was being conned!

stupid freaking old man!

we were at one of malaysia's patrol station when that man came towards us.

his age is around 25-3o++

he can walk.

he can talk.

he wore pretty clothes.

okays here's the scenario.

first when we just came out of the patrol station,

he came forward us with a wicked smile.

wanted to sell us a watch.

but we refused to buy from him.

we got into the car.

when my father wanted to close the door,

he ran forward, stood at the side of my father's car.

kept begging and begging.

we got so irritated by him but we do not want conflicts.

so, we agreed to buy the watch from him.

we gave RM100 to him.

but he is unhappy and wanted more.

and yadadadah.

you should know what happened.

he even tried to cry.

gave him more and drove away.

i bet his watch is either stolen or those from night markets.

was furious. damn him.

GAHHS. if that happen in singapore, he will be punished hashly.

wish him all the worst.

hahas! then we went to our relative's house.

the place was flooded with tons of people.

but the house is big enough.

at noon, we started gambling.

we played as tough RM(don't know how to spell the actual word)worth nothing.

we played from RM5 to RM5o to RM2oo plus.

its abit too much for gambling 'blackjack' and 'in between'.

we gambled all the way to the next day at 4.

i was too tired so i was the one who sleep first.

Tuesday 27.01.2009

woke up at 9plus and wash up and yadadadah.

then watch television.

at noon, my father drove all of us home PEACEFULLY.

Wednesday 28.01.2009

did not attend school.

super tired and kindda sick.

i remembered i woke up at noon.

at the later part of the day,

my grandfather was admitted into hospital.

visited him and homed.

Thursday 29.01.2009

school-ed!

then forgotten.

Friday 30.01.2009

school-ed.

supposedly, should go for CCA after school.

but something cropped up.

there was nobody at home to take care of my grandfather,

i was still kindda sick,

and was seriously tired.

so homed:D

its 1126 now i ahve dance practice tomorrow.

goodbyes people!

TAGS REPLY.(this is the second time i am writing this i may sound abit hash.)

Ben : you have already fainted. how did you hit me? you must be dreaming.

Rumin : back and replied:D

Alex : serious? why don't i sense it? who are the ones?

- : i just don't understand why. people have beautiful names but juat don't like to share. mind sharing who are you? (:

Jh : updated:D

Ben : happy new year and i bathed already!

Amanda : secrets! shhh! :D

i wanna post before i leave :D

2009-01-25T17:09:00.000-08:00

heys, i am not dead!

hahas. had a wonderful dream just now.

but, i forgotten what i dreamt of.

its 910 now.

i have just woke up.

damn tired.

slept at 139 last night.

i am now waiting for my granny.

she is in the toliet.

i wanna sleep.

my eyes were half shut.

so if there is typo, don't blame me.

blame my eyes:D

just wanted to say,

goodbye people.

i will miss all of you.

hahas. not really all.

some of you i meant.

i can't remember everybody.

anyways, bye!

TAGS REPLY.

Ben : whatever! watch out form my Punch. *WHATA!* hahas.

Leonard : jie! i have not seen you for about a year. misses. meet up soon :D

Charlton : ya. certain messages can't be seen. but some can. aiyo how i know? ask my phone.

Rumin : i never even reply my friend's message. also, if i did not reply means, i am speechless. hahas.

Zhenyu : but you are still late.

Zhenyu : so what if i cheat? at least i am sincere. hahas. why did you think like me and write this way? i don't mind. hahas. promise will think of you de luhhs. aiyoyo.

its cny ;D

2009-01-25T08:27:00.000-08:00

people spoil my mood easily.

this is what charlton did.

charlton says:
happy lunar new ry
yr*
- [♥]BELLBELL says:
its alr new year
wake up!
charlton says:
zzz nvm
- [♥]BELLBELL says:
hahs
what?
charlton says:
nth la go tok to ur ben bye bye

he wished my happy new year.

and told me off.

what did i do?

its new year and he did it on purpose.

we argued again.

i am tired about all of this.

i'll just stay away from trouble.

anyways, went to help my mother just now in the salon.

after that, went to meet jinyun and back to salon.

on my way back, my heart hurts badly.

heart problem. hahas i don't know.

i can still feel the pain.

maybe i will be dead on my way to dreamland.

if i am really dead,

please attend my funeral.

hahas. touch wood touch wood.

anyways, happy cny;D

its 1246 now.

i know i did not keep my promise to sleep at 12.

hahas goodnights:D

something is missing.

2009-01-24T21:14:00.000-08:00

(random picture found from file.)

woke up at 1112 today.

slept late last night. terribly late.

wash up and went to watch tv.

watched GX5 from OKTO.

its nice. seriously.

because zhenyan was in the show.

he is damn adorable nor.

at 12, i went back to my room again.

used the lappy till now.

well, i changed my blogsong again.

girls are fickle remember?

wangqin, my china pal, currently in china,

messaged me. did not reply to her.

i don't know what to reply.

some inspirations please.

i love LG viewty.

its gorgeous.

life is bored.

something is missing.

maybe because there is no ballet today?

its weird.

will be meeting jinyun later to return her something.

zhenyu promised to send me a new year msg at 12am sharp today.
lets see if he is going to be late.

maybe updating again tonight.

if not, please wish me bon voyage.

i will be leaving soon.

i don't know when.

will be back either tuesday or wednesday.

i don't know when either.

don't you see?

i am actually trying to lenghten my post?

reunion dinner later?

people will be comming to my house.

try to update again later.

goodbyes.

TAGS REPLY.

Carmen : relinked :D

Alex : hahas. how funny.

Ben : RUBBISH!

Vanessa : Replied :D

Weixuan : this post is adventurous enough? hahas. Replied.

we were good at taking pictures:D

2009-01-24T07:45:00.000-08:00

23JAN :D

2009-01-23T07:17:00.000-08:00

went to school as usual.
during lessons, i could feel the anxiety within myself.
omg. its so awful.
was dreaded to go through the lessons.
at 943 sharp, went to canteen realising that i am the last one.
supposedly, the chinese dance members should reach at 930 to have breakfast.
but i feel irresponsible leaving english class without finishing work.
so time passed.
finally its concert.
its the first performance i had for the year.
waited waited then TATA!
did not do really well for the performance.
was really scared.
its the first time feeling like that.
its embarrassing.
every one was like laughing so hard,
when we were sweating profusely.
trying to present ourselves in the best way.
dumb dumb people.
after school, went out with james:D
we both did alot of shopping.
in total, we spent almost 400plus.
i bought something something and heels.
damn loving the heels.
its simple yet classic.
3inches high.
glad that i am still able to walk with heels on.
forgotten how i endured through the latin dance classes when i am primary four.
wore four inches for 2hours++ each lesson.
after that homed.
then family gathering not reunion dinner.
then blah blah blah, homed.
thanks for reading earthlings.
:D

BENJAMIN COMMANDED ME TO POST HERE STATING THAT I AM CHOUCHOU.

WHEN I AM SO XIANGXIANG!

HE IS CRAZY.

HE SHOULD BE ADMITTED TO IMH IMMEDIATELY.

new year is round the corner :D

2009-01-22T05:12:00.000-08:00

i slept fitfully last night.

all because of that intruder.

that lizard.

it makes me feel uncomfortable speaking of that lizard.

i don't know where is it already.

it maybe gone, or maybe somewhere in my room.

that little lizard may think that i am overly friendly.

so it came to my room.

i don't deny that i am friendly.

hahas. i can be super friendly if you are polite to me.

heehs =D

went for rehersal just now.

nothing special.

i can skip classes tomorrow.

i don't have to attend maths and half of english.

yippee. sometimes there are advantages.

the concert tomorrow will be a super duper short one.

hahas. chinese dance is the last item for the concert tomorrow.

can't imagine myself dancing like that.

its weird.

i will blush. there will be tons of people tomorrow.

i am already feeling the anxiety.

hope that its gonna be a good one.

pray that no one will end up laughing.

i prepared everything for tommorow.

also, i will not be able to attend tuition tomorrow.

cause will be having reunion dinner at night.

how i love chinese new year.

skip so many things.

oh my god. this is heaven.

hahas. during chinese new year,

may not be in singapore.

as i will be visiting some relatives from other country.

hahas. i am so so happy.

after so many waitings, new year is arriving soon.

i wonder if i could sleep later on.

will update again tomorrow if i have the time.

goodnights people :D

TAGS REPLY.

zhenyu : sorry for the slow reply. stress is not for me now.

i am overly happy :D

ben : eh? what you mean by i know how hear? hahs.

yo : shaohui! its time to change a litte. stop using yo :D

zhenyu : it shows that i got taste de right? heehs.

alex : eh? you sure? you demo to me luhs. i don't want to act like a moron :D hahas.

yilong : heys, thanks for the tag. much appreciated.

siokfong : what were you doing at home for the whole day. you barely touch your computer. enjoy your days with brandon gwee :P hahas.

tough.

2009-01-21T06:54:00.000-08:00

this week is horrible.

yesterday, i accidentally step onto a dead bird.

i step onto it!

it almost become roti prata i think.

its terrifying.

i was rushing to meet my brother.

so did not really notice whats lying on the floor.

i was still walking and walking.

and i felt weird.

so, i turned around to look what i stepped onto.

to my horror, its a dead bird.

my face turned green i think.

i felt guilty after that.

this incident made me recall what happened many many years ago.

i saw a bird being murdered infront of my own eyes.

till now, the images were still vividly on my mind.

sign. and today, a lizard invaded my room!

goodness gracious.

i saw it and screamed.

and i was scolded.

life is tough.

especially for timid people like me.

i rushed to my father asking him to chase the lizard out.

he was watching the news then.

and ignored me until he finished.

i waited and waited.

finally he agreed to help.

but to my disgust, the lizard ran away.

lizards really do have good stamina.

they run faster than me.

i haven done my homework.

will be waking up 30min earlier than usual to complete.

i can't even remember tiny stuff like this.

i think i am really growing older.

soon, i will forget everything, including you.

hahas. its late now.

i am going to sleep now.

goodnights earthlings:D

2009-01-19T04:14:00.000-08:00

well well,

hellos people.

i changed my blog song.

its a very sweet piece.

i love the composer.

anyone could play this, is beyond supernatural.

you people out there better not tell me that you will fall asleep after listening.

it will be an insult to me.

respect the composer.

now, close your eyes.

Relax and enjoy:D

don't fall asleep.

buhbyes.

2009-01-18T05:05:00.000-08:00

for god so loved the world that he gave his one and only son,

that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

-John 3:6

god is always there for me.

i made the decision to accept Jesus.

it means that Jesus has forgiven my sins

and given me the ability to overcome evil desires.

and yet, i am blinded with situations thinking that he is not there at all.

god will never leave you alone with your problems.

but he will lighten your burdens.

"never will i leave you ; never will i forsake you."

-Hebrews 13:5b

no one can rob us of our relationship with god,

except when we choose to abandon him.

god promises his children that he is always there for us

inspite of circumstances or how we feel.

"for i am convinced that neither death nor life,

neither angels nor demons,

neither the present nor the future,

nor any powers,

neither height or depth,

nor anything else in all creation,

will be able to separate us from the love of god that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

Romans 8:38-39

god wants to bless us as he is our heavenly father.

reading bible actually bring protection and blessings for our lives.

"and without faith it is impossible to please god,

because anyone who comes to him

must believe that he exists

and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him."

-Hebrews 11:6

god loves us.

stressed.

2009-01-17T05:39:00.000-08:00

STRESSED. STRESSED. STRESSED.

can you feel how stressful i am right now?

dion made me feel so guilty.

i know its my mistake at first.

but seriously,

i am not into the thing we talk about earlier on.

and seriously, i am cherishing everything i am having now.

you don't understand me.

not even any earthlings.

how i hope everybody could understand what is going through my mind.

i am a very good girl.

i listened to my mother.

it makes no sense for you to say that i am a bad girl.

anyways, today, recieved my grey toga from my mailbox.

was so schocked when i saw the parcel.

its packed till its so small.

thank you MHM.

i want chalet.

it will be fun.

randoness. i know.

buhbyes.

TAGS REPLY.

ben : you flooded my tagbox. hahas.

marco : linked.

elden : true enough. i love edward :D

£ : please state who you are next time :D

alex : don't you know guys should be more initiative? don't you tell me you want me to shout over the canteen 'hellos, alex!' hahas. also, i am very friendly:D

life is miserable.

2009-01-15T03:57:00.000-08:00

everyday was the same.
The anger I felt was like a prodding pen.
you caused my blood to bitter with the presence of hate.
i hid my tears but to no avail.
in my mind, i know i am screaming.
did my watery eyes give you no hint?
for now, when i am at home,
it means four walls and a lonely bed.
i cried so hard that when i woke up this morning,
my eyes swelled.
whatever happened had took place.
i felt abandoned.
The echoing of past memories are burning and scalding with intensity.
it hurts me badly.

TAGS REPLY :

Jiamin : thank you.
din : thanks for the tag.
Zhenyu : i tagged you back already.
Rumin : yea. terry rocks.
Elden : what do you mean?
josiie : linked.
yishian :i tagged you back already.
Rumin : i told you.
Ben : i took my medicine.
Weixuan : tagged.
Marco : i don't have your link.
Charlton : lol.
Yishian : i love you toos. flood you back one day.

2009-01-14T04:27:00.000-08:00

i do everything is just because of you.
now this is how you treat me back?
you give me false promises.
do you know that i am very fragile?
i cannot take shocks.
i may appear to be strong infront of you.
but its just that i don't want to let you see how weak i am.
i cannot take it any more.
i hate being like how i used to be.
its getting on my nerves.
i know that you may not be able to see this post at all.

i can also be independent.
i don't need you.
i am not a small girl any more.
i grown up.

there are so many things.

2009-01-12T03:07:00.000-08:00

heys hellos people. this will gonna be a damn long post.
last saturday, went to cca fair.
its quite fun.
wei ren's brother is damn adorable okays.
watched his show yesterday.
its nice. i enjoyed it.
he is such a kai xin guo to me.
how i wish i have a brother like him.
i cannot fail to laugh when i saw him.
he is too humorous.
went to school with jingyun and him today.
actually meeting jingyun under her block.
but he was in the same lift with her.
so we went to school together.
huijun says he looks like a mashi maro.
not sure spelling was correct.
his eyes were damn small lols.
i wonder, can he actually see me?
hahas.
anyways, went out with rumin and jiamin just now.
went to bugis first, to get my dance shoes, then off to meet a guy.
he is so horrible.
he is not even a gentleman can.
he just took something from jiamin without her permission.
and he made us waited 3 times just for him.
each of it, lasted more than 20mins.
first, he made us wait at the MRT station.
then, for him to cut his hair.
third, he made us wait for him to eat.
the worst of all, he burp thrice infront of us.
its rude to do so.
i wondered, don't he feel embarrass?
alrights, he is jiamin's friend shouldn't elaborate much.
eventhough i had post lots of him already.
i know its rude but i cannot keep it in my heart.
TERRY IS ALOT BETTER THAN HIM.
first of all, he won't make us wait.
second, he offered to buy drinks for jiamin.
third, he won't call us to do anything.
fourth, i am sure that he will keep his promises.
fifth, he is much better looking.
sixth, he have better attitude.
seventh, he is much introverted.
eighth, he won't take things without permission.
ninth, he has table manners.
tenth, the three of us like him more than the guy we met today.
i am glad that eveything was over.
just wish jiamin all the best and sorry if i offened you.
last of all, its great to recieve so many tags from you all.
it feels great.
buhbyes.

TAGS REPLY.

Marco : replied.
Elden : cause he is too perfect, infact, more than perfect.
Suhui : hi! thanks for the tag. i love my daughter.
Charlton : its obvious that its dancing right? lol.
Rumin : you are here to tag is because i tagged you. hahs :D updated.
Carmen : tagged you too!
Ben : wa! so lazy. name also short cuts. i can play the games anythime when i am free. but must make appointment first hor. hahas.
Huijun : finally. linked :D

Anyways, pictures are from huijun's blog.
CREDITS TO HER.

2009-01-09T05:41:00.000-08:00

went to school today.
its tiring.
i even missed tuition.
was too tired for tuition.
had dance practice.
there were bruises on my arms and knees.
its such a torture.
this will be the last SYF that i am going for.
had to go school tomorrow.
its CCA fair.
luckily i am not dancing tomorrow.
i don't have time to read!
i am still at eclipse.
anyways, finished shopping at myhulamonkey.
their services were great.
now, all i need to do is to wait for the parcel to reach me.
hahas. take a look there. think that you guys will like it.
anyways, its for girls!
go there if you are a girl!
hahas. http://myhulamonkey.blogspot.com or myhulamonkey.livejournal.com
ENJOY!
i don't know what to write already.
buhbyes :D

TAGS REPLY.

Elden : what isit about edward? lol.
Jiayan : thanks :D

I Love EDWARD.

2009-01-07T04:27:00.000-08:00

( me with g.jiamin. this is the nicest photo that i found with her.)

I love EDWARD!

hahas.
i know its crazy.
but its good to have somebody in mind to distract me from other things.
i have to study hard this year.
well, its complicated.
went schooling today.
its boring!
maybe i slept late the night before.
i haven't even started on my homework.
gosh! i need some time management.
i don't have time to read.
seriously, i wanted to have holidays.
so i can read again.
i enjoy reading.
its so peaceful.
rather than going to school,
with some dumb dumb people pissing me off.
today's PE is rather embarrassing.
should not elaborate much.
too embarrassing.
i am going to start doing my homework now.
buhbyes :D

TAGS REPLY.

Elden : is there anything to wa about? hahas. also, its obvious that its a new skin :D
RuMin : we can read each other's mind marrhs. iloverumin.
Beatrice : hahas. thank you :D
Jialin : thank you.
Charlton : its obvious. everyone knows.

changes.

2009-01-04T03:04:00.000-08:00

well, i changed my blogskin.
i felt sick looking at the same blogskin over some time.
so, i changed it.
i have not fully edited my blogskin.
my brother got his guitar back.
and he is making tons of noise.
noise pollution also causes anxiety you know.
hahas. went for ballet this afternoon.
then homed.
my life is dull. i know.
tomorrow will be a greater day.
i will try to upload pictures into my blog.
to make it more colorful.
from my point of view,
pictures are the ones making those effects.
making the whole blog colorful.
update tomorrow.
goodbyes.

TAGS REPLY.

Huijun : do leave your URL the other time when you tag me. i did not link you yet. hahas.
Beatrice : Sure. you must tag hor. i will be utterly disappointed if i found out you did not tag me. hahas.

truth.

2009-01-03T06:38:00.000-08:00

this is what my birthday means.
and i find it true enough.
this is about me.
You are sensitive and vulnerable.
Tears often run down your cheeks even when the matter is not that bad.
This might be the result from being to pessimistic.
You might seem cold on the shell, but your inner self is a loving person.
Your Love, You will be elegantly dressed, no matter how casually dressed your date may be.
You are demanding in love and sometimes to an unacceptable extend.

my greatest strength.
Optimistic, brilliantly sociable and motivated to win the best in life.

my greatest weakness.
Unrealistic, stubborn and reluctant to confront problems.

jobs that i should pursue.
Politicians and media men.

i have nothing to post so i posted this.

TAGS REPLY.

Zhenyu : i don't want to end up like a charcoal. i am already tanned enough :D
Rumin : hahas. hi-5. love you too :D

first day.

2009-01-02T04:28:00.000-08:00

school reopened today.

i am officially upgraded to secondary three.

but i do have a retaining feeling.

sadded nor.

secondary three's' should actually sit at the back when assembling.

but now, we switched places with the secondary two's'.

stupid plan.

why don't move the secondary five's' or four's' forward?

anyways, school was alright today.

nothing special.

just that there are alot of talkings.

wasted lots of time.

craps!

looking forward to the next day in school.

i enjoy being in class.

its fun. my new form teacher is really weird.

other teachers don't give warning but he does.

funny huh? hahas.

not really. i know.

sec 3 is the year when we have to go to OBS!

dumb dumb. i don't wish to go and i can't go.

hahas. there will be a dance practice tomorrow.

bored. will end up having muscle ache again on the following day.

i am getting busier and busier.

holidays gone.

my schedule for every week is

monday to friday school and revisions.

saturday and sunday dance

this will last all the way to april or may.

and there will be a slight changes.

i will e free on saturday then.

i am so busy until i cannot even have the time to read.

now, my time is still haywired.

i couldn't sleep.

and was really tired this afternoon and took a nap.

its not enough at all.

my nap lasted for 3hours plus plus.

a long long one.

if its not that i am having tuition at 6o'clock,

i think i am still sleeping now.

i wonder, am i still free for business?

i needed money badly.

hahas. broke!

anybody want to donate me some?

RUBBISH! hahas.

buhbyes :D

2009!

2008-12-31T08:05:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

this is my first post for 2009.

my new year resolution are...

i want to be top in class.
i want to have a job.
i want my family and friends to stay healthy.
i want to have new phone.
i want to excel in dance.
i want to be happy everyday.

anyways, happy birthday weiting:D

TAGS REPLY :

Shihui : yea? hahs.
Elden : (:
Liling : RElinked.
Andrea : thank you(:
Zhenyu : huh? i don't understand!

lalalas.

2008-12-30T00:37:00.000-08:00

days were mundane.
life is always the same.
nothing special this few days.
its my brother's birthday today.
i bought him a cheese cake.
he was happy and surprised.
this is the first time i am doing this for him.
two days ago, it was rumin's and jingyun's birthday.
did not get to go out with either of them.
instead, i went out with my brother.
we went to orchard.
also, we went to two bookstores.
looking for eclipse.
but i found it though.
not from orchard but from tampines mall.
TIMES!
gosh! was super duper happy after getting the book.
i am waiting for the hard cover edition to come out.
i wanted to buy everything.
i know i am too crazy for Twilight.
but this is what i like.
this is the first time, i am so in love with story books.
usually i don't read.
but, Twilight seems to caught my interest.
today, i woke up at 7.30am.
my stomach seems to cause troubles for me today.
i was in pain.
till now, i was still in pain.
anyways, i started to wash up and ate noodles.
can't finish.
cause, usually i don't take breakfast in the morning.
i ate 1/4 of it.
what a waste!
as i am eating, i was reading too.
then off to school.
dance practice started at 9am.
all the way till 1pm.
its four hours.
tired, tired and still tired.
i know everybody is tired.
school is reopening soon.
excitements ran through me as usual.
mr. tan would be my form teacher next year.
not sure which mr. tan he was but he is still mr. tan.
RUBBISH! i don't know what i was writing.
i am going to rest now.
i was still in pain.
i don't know when i am gonna update again.
don't message me.
there is some problem with my phone.
i gonna change it to nokia N95.
i know its an old model.
but i still like it.
do tag me but no flooding please.
buhbyes :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONG RUMIN AND KOH JINGYUN.(28.DEC.2008)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER TOO.

TAGS REPLY.
Elden : seriously, i don't remeber what happened. hahas.
Charlton : thats my holiday. lol. i am always this busy. don't you know?
Zhenyu : repiled.

update :)

2008-12-26T08:29:00.000-08:00

heys, hellos people.
i finally found the time to update.
its 12.29am.
i know you guys do miss me rights?
everybody is calling me to update.
ya, i know not everybody.
just craps.
okays lets start....

SATURDAY- 20.dec.2008
thats the first time i watched TWILIGHT.
its superb.
my first time was with G.jiamin.
i like that show so much.

SUNDAY-21.dec.2008
after ballet, i went to white sands with katherine and vanessa.
its the day i got my first-thickest book ever.
twilight.
and it taken my almost all my attention.
i did not watch the television, use the computer, check my phone,
or anything else.
just reading.
i started reading when i was in the bus.
i got so engrossed and once i got home, i washed up and started reading again.
all the way till 2am.
(white sands popular is selling twilight at 13++ get your book now.)

MONDAY-22.dec.2008
its my second time watching TWILIGHT again.
after chinese dance practice, i was very very tired.
but for the show, time seems to be passing fast.
then i went home to change and met jingyun.
we rush for the movie then.
its my second time watching but i still love it.
after the movie, we went to popular.
HENG ARR!
i got my second book, NEW MOON.
its was great too.

TUESDAY-23.dec.2008
chinese dance in the morning.
then BBQ in the afternoon all the way to night.
heard that E6s were having their bbq in east coast park too.
the BBQ is for the chinese dance members.
mdm lijing came too.
she was pretty.
i think i will miss her after some time not seeing her anymore.
she have moved to another place.
forgotten where it is.
mdm lijing told us that once her house gets renovated successfully,
she will invite the all of us to her house for a party i think.
hahs.
when i was at home, i read again.

WEDNESDAY-24.dec.2008
woke up late.
stayed at home for the whole day.
was actually going for a Christmas party.
but i was having a bad mood.
i don't wish to spoil people's mood.
stayed at home reading.

THURDAY-25.dec.2008
its Christmas!
HOHOHO!
i was actually planning to stay at home.
but i couldn't resist reading more.
so, went out eventually.
to get the next book ECLIPSE.
i went to..
WHITE SANDS - out of stock.
TAMPINES MALL - out of stock.
BIGBOOKSHOP - out of stock.
JURONG POINT - out of stock.
ROAR!
so frustrating cans.
IRRITATING.
anybody knew where to get it?
also, not only ECLIPSE i was also looking for BREAKING DAWN.

FRIDAY-26.dec.2008
i forgotten.

SATURDAY-27.dec.2008
in the morning, i went to meet g.jiamin.
then rumin can finally go out.
so we met altogether with yishian too.
g.jiamin and i went to tampines mall first to wait for them there.
then fianlly zhu and yishian arrived.
after a long long time.
we then went to jurong point.
ate mac.
then went around looking for book store.
its too big.
can't find anything with that limited time.
just found popular.
my eclipse and breaking dawn is still no where to be found.
SADDED.
then homed.
waited for g.pa then went for the so-called "dinner"
i was overdressed.
so embarrassing.
don't wanna talk about what happened.
i was quiet there.
then homed.
open the mail-box.
was v.happy to see my mail there.
my dress.
sent by lylarose.
i was like fainting?
waited for so long and finally.
happy.
i love their service.
though its slow because of some problems.
but overall, they were superb.
its 1.02am now.
i finished my post buhbye people.
i love TWILIGHT SAGA.

TAGS REPLY.
Sulaiman : i am not a weird girl! you are a weird guy!
Elden : nothing! hahas. i forgotten what happened.
Weixuan : i will try to make it alive soon.
Rumin : i updated :D
Andrea : RElinked.
Kerrie : repiled :D
Gladys : Linked :D

tags replies:D

2008-12-18T06:18:00.000-08:00

Tags reply.

M.ichelle : fianceee! misses too. we are going out tomorrow:D
Suhui : i have done the quiz:D
charlton : thanks for the tag.
Rumin : copy cat kiss the rat!.
Elden : want you to see nothing:D
Rumin : i deleted the post alr. forget about it.
Carmen : replied:D
Yishian : i love you too:D
Weixuan : repiled:D

quizes

2008-12-16T08:40:00.000-08:00

The person who tagged you is ?
-SuHui nu'er.

Your relationship with her ?
- we were mother and daughter :}

Your 5 impression of him/her ?
-simply tall, funny, adorable, talkative & hardworking.
(that makes her my Suhui nu'er)

The most memorable thing he/she has done for u ?
-she tried very hard to become a good dancer.
eventhough its not really for me.

If he/she becomes your lover , will you agree ?
-Sure. if only i am a guy of course.
her cuteness simply attracted me.

If he/she becomes your lover , things he/she needs to improve on ?
-love me more and stop growing tall.

If he/she becomes your enemy you will ?
-i dun think so. we are mother and daughter :}

If he/she dies, you will..
- i will attend her funeral.

What is it you wanna tell him/her now ?
- I LOVE YOU!

Your overall inpression of him/her ?
-she is a really nice girl.

How do you think ppl around u wil feel ?
-i am a cheerful girl. yea?

The characters you love of yourself are ?
-i don't know.

On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are ?
- i think there will be alot. too optimistic sometimes.

The most ideal person you wanna be is ?
-a great ballerina like polina semionova.

for the people that care you and like you , say something to them n respect them more ?
-errmm.. i dun quite understand this.

Pass this quiz 2 10 tt you wish 2 know how they feel abt you
1.Rumin.
2.Amanda.
3.Vanessa.
4.Pearlyn.
5.Liling.
6.Zhenyu.
7.Michelle.
8.Siman.
9.Andrea.
10.YiShian.

Hu is 6 having relationship with ?
-errm.. nobody?

Is 9 a male or female ?
-Female

If 7 n 10 re 2gether wil it be a good thing ?
- wow. impressive. wait till they become lesbians.

Wad is 2 studying all abt ?
-i don't know.

When is the last time u chat with 3 ?
-last sunday!

What kind of music band does 8 likes ?
-i don't know.

Does 1 have any siblings ?
-yes. its MELVIN ONG!

Will you woo no. 3 ?
-yes. she is a great girl. so tall! (if only i am a guy.)

How abt 7 ?
-of course. she is my honey.

Is 4 single ?
-i think so.

What is the surname of 5 ?
-omg. i don't know. she did not tell me about that.

What is the hobby of 10 ?
- piano-ing.

Does 5 n 9 get along ?
-i bet they don't know each other.

Where is 2 studying at ?
-ChuaChuKangsecondary. i think so.

Talk abt something for 1?
-i love her so much. she is just so perfect :}

Have you tried developing feelings with 8 ?
-i am not a lesbian.

Where does 9 live in ?
- somewhere in singapore.

What kind of colour does 4 likes ?
-PINK?! i don't know.

Are 1 n 5 best friends ??
-i don't think they know each other.

Does 1 have any pets ?
-a guinea pig. she called it hamster.

Is 7 the sexiest person in the world ?
-yes. she is indeed a sexay!

What is 10 doin now ??
-snoring like a pig. bet she was sleeping. its so late now.

._.

2008-12-15T07:03:00.000-08:00

hellos people.
its gohjiamin's birthday.
happy birthday. dun cry anymore, its your big day :}
suddenly, i got the urge to buy a digital camera.
at first i thought, having a phone is enough.
cause a phone have lots of functions.
and that includes the phone camera.
and its giving problems.
let's skip to the next topic.
yesterday, went for ballet class.
did quite well i think.
preparing for examinations already.
STRESSED.
also, after ballet class,
my mates and i went to the ladies to change our clothings.
as we were wearing leotards and tights.
then there was a man and a boy in the toilet.
was so shocked.
then he asked us wad are we doing in the gents.
but we were in the ladies!
hahas. its funny. i forgotten wad we replied.
but that man sure is embarrassed.
he went out of the ladies with his cheeks red.
back to today.
woke up at 9++
the earliest in this month.
i read rumin's message and couldn't go back to sleep.
washed and dressed up.
off i went to her house.
stayed there for hours.
didn't really calculate.
once again rumin saved the day.
but this time was with her brother.
when i was about to leave,
she offered to send me down.
her brother tagged along.
MELVIN ONG IS REALLY CUTE.
rumin sometimes find him irritaing, but i find him really cute.
thats wad a primary4 boy should do.
after that we went to 7-eleven.
bought things and i went home.
met wuweixiong, my cousin.
he changed alot.
big difference from the last time i met him.
and makes me laugh really hard.
funny guy. kept giving cold jokes.
then he went to my house.
stayed here a while with my brother around.
the went out.
celebrated gohjiamin's birthday and homed.
finally i finished everything.
buhbye earthlings :}

TAGS REPLY.

Vanessa : i deleted my friendster was because i befriended with strangers there and don't wish to continue. best wishes for your ballet exam too. smiles :}
Amanda : you flood, i delete :D
priscilla : of course i still remember you. i do have good memory okays. anyways i am figuring how to navigate your blog. its kinnda hard. i clicked everywhere, but nothing happen. hahas. enjoy your holidays :}

2008-12-12T23:27:00.000-08:00

this morning at 4++ i just finished reading SILKSCREEN.
its damn nice man.
at first i thought it was a horror story.
so was reluctant to read.
but as i was reading, the story gets more interesting.
and i can't go to sleep without finishing the story.
ytd, went to meet up with my cousins.
then at 610pm i went for my tuition.
i was late for 10mins but when i reached there, i realised i was early.
not early i meant.
but there are only two people in the class.
soon, more people got into the class.
i was like so blur.
i dun quite understand the lesson at first.
as i missed one lesson last week.
secondary3 maths is more than i expected.
hahs. but i think i can manage.
time went fast ytd.
was really enjoying tt class.
there is nobody tt i know in tt class.
can't even talk.
the class was as quiet as grave.
after the class i went to find my mother at her salon.
and spent my time there all the way till 11++
watched tv and yadadada.
then homed.
washed up and start reading.
boring life.

TAGS REPLY.

Vanessa : thanks for the compilment. i like your blog too. also i am not emo-ing anymore :}
Rumin ♥ : yea. poke tt idoit. but who is the idoit you are refering to?
kerrie : heys thanks for tagging me. hehhs. i am enjoying my holidays seriously :D you enjoy your holidays too alrights?
yuting : HEYS! too. hahas.
passer-by : yarr i will be in 3n1 next year. and you are?
AMANDA!! : hey yohs. thanks for the tips. also, when you have the cbox, please inform me cause i will flood it. hahas. BEWARE!

I HATE YOU.

2008-12-11T01:01:00.000-08:00

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU
girls are weird.
they do have moodswings at times.
why can't people understand.
its not tt they want to.
the hormones in their body are just moving up and down.
gahhs!
THIS IS GETTING BORING.
why why why?
hypocrite!
everybody is always like that.
everything is going back to the starting point.
I HAD ENOUGH!
i know i may be unreasonable at times.
but you should think back wad happened from the start.
people really change fast.
you are human, so am i.
you have success.
you have seriously affected my mood.
nvm. i don't want to bother about anything anymore.
no matter what happens i am still myself.
who cares about you.
i will just carry on the marathon all by myself.

this is just a random post.
i need to talk to somebody.
but there is nobody there for me.
zhu was sleeping.
so, i am left with blogger.

bored.

2008-12-10T21:39:00.000-08:00

no pictures again.
life is getting so boring.
life is short.
nobody can predict who will die tomorrow.
everybody must learn to cherish each other.
appreciate wad you have right now.
don't be like me.
i only know how to appreciate when things are gone.
and REGRETS.
this is isabell's theory.
must remember hor.
hahs. randomness.
just trying to lengthen my post.
i did went swimming with my cousin.
and REGRETS.
i am now like a charcoal.
my skin is so tanned.
GAHHS!
yesterday, met rumin.
it has been a long time ever since we last met.
i almost couldn't recognise her.
after meeting her, we decided to visit angel.
really miss her alot.
did not see her for 3months?
she was hospitalised remember?
hahas. but she was at home yesterday.
she told us tt she likes living in the hospital.
CRAZY RIGHT?
i then don't want her to be in the hospital anymore.
i want her to stay healthy.
anyways, we stayed in her house for about one hour or so?
her hair was so curly.
she cannot rebond.
due to some problems not able to tell.
family problems.
hahs. wonder how she tie her hair when she go to school next year.
hahs. she said she grown taller too.
but i cannot see any difference in her height.
after visiting angel, rumin went to my house.
and stayed here quite sometime before leaving.
my brothers were at home ytd.
hahas. but they very friendly de nor.
zhu know them quite well.
hahas. i sent zhu to MacDonalds.
as stated in her blog, i am so WEIDA (noble).
hahas. its my first time.
everytime, she is the one who sent me home.
thankyou zhu!
zhu is always by my side helping me and cheering me up.
she have already become part of my life.
i don't know what will happen next year.
we will be in different classes.
hope the appealing will be successful .
i don't need many liars and backstabbers to make myself happy.
i just need few true friends to make my life full of colours.
i love my friends and my life.
buhbye earthlings :}

TAGS REPLY:

charlton : explained to you already :D
suhui : repiled.
rumin : this shows tt i have good taste luhhs. hahas. too bad. speaker doesn't have replacements.

BORING!

2008-12-07T20:09:00.000-08:00

this is the thrid time when zhu finally agreed to go out with me,
and it RAINED.
GAHHS!
getting more and more used to it.
really hope tt school reopen soon.
I DON'T LIKE THIS!
cannot meet up friends.
i think i really miss some of them.
hahas. how stupid.
i woke up at 11.42am this morning.
its A.M so its still consider morning.
its also considered early.
as i slept at 4++last night.
all my time has gone haywired.
also, i went to http://lylarose.livejournal.com for shopping.
i like their clothings.
cause its nice.
should take a look at them.
the model is also pretty.
heehs. go there to shop for a x'mas dress. PEOPLE!
heehs. but there is a problem.
i paid for the things tt i wanted to buy but the owner have not replied me.
as she would be in the hospital as stated on tt web.
i am still waiting patiently.
i haven gave her the snapshot of my transaction receipt.
but i really paid.
i am afraid tt they won't take in my order.
hahas. i am sick and tired of worrying about things.
cause i will tend to think of lots lots of things.
DAMN LOTS. things are not going smooth for me.
my diet plan also not going on my way.
i am gaining weight.
hahas. food nowadays are so delicious.
if i dun eat them up, i will feel sorry for myself.
hahas. with this mindset, i won't be able to lose weight.
guarantee plus chop!
i wanted to go PARIS.
zhu said tt she also wanted to go.
anybody want to go with me?
hahas. air tickets are expensive.
anybody want to pay for our air tickets?
anybody? hahas.
its so romantic to celebrate x'mas there.
omg. my imaginations are running wild.
hahas. this post is so so so random.
no pictures for today's post.
cause i am lazy to find pictures.
anyways, this is my first post for December.
hoorays. heehs. lets welcome December :]

TAGS REPLY:

teresa : thanks:D
pearlyn : i have already linked you:]
elden : well i think i am chilling. heehs.
honey : honey and bees. hahas. i am ignoring the .________. and i have updated my blog:}
rumin♥ : to the beat of mine, to the beat of mine, to the beat of my heart! hahas. ily.
isabel tan : hahas hi-5. i have linked you.
andrea : how did you managed to find my blog? hahas. link link link. hahs. i have linked you.

lalalas

2008-11-27T21:06:00.000-08:00

can you spot me?
hahs. i have been neglecting my blog for some time.
was too lazy to post.
i suddenly remember those days when i am in china, sichuan.
its really a nice place.
but after the earthquke,
i think some places might have changed.
if i could, i really would like to go back there again.
i really do miss my friends there.
it have been more than half a year.
GAHHS! miss them so much can?
hahs. aniwaes, from now on,
people who tag me MUST PUT THEIR REAL NAMES.
for goodness sake.
a moron who named himself/herself "****"
tagged me and said my blog is lame and yadadadada.
this will not affect my mood.
i do not know who he/she is.
i will not block him/her.
so in case he/she want to apologise.
lol. nth to post now.
may be back later or not.
buhbyes:D

lalalas

2008-11-21T04:33:00.000-08:00

BOOS!
hellos people.
i am back again.
i know this kindda starting is super duper BORED,
but i cannot think of another way to start.
BLAHS!
today, went to school for the workshop again.
its so fun cans.
i really regretted for not attending the workshop yesterday.
GAHHS!
i learnt many things from the workshop but forgotten most of them.
hahs. overall, the workshop is just MARVELOUS!
aniwaes, silentkillers won!
so shocking lohhs.
but was really happy.
i think i am starting to enjoy my life.
in my previous post i did mention tt the next day would be a better day?
and yea i am right!
hahas. RUBBISH!
wad am i writing.
please don't laugh when reading.
buhbyes earthlings:D

i'll put everything aside.

2008-11-20T05:05:00.001-08:00

hellos people.
im back with a smile.
singing can really help people reduce stress.
its really useful.
so next time, when you feel uncomfortable with your mood,
try to SING!
so you can help yourself to cool down to think carefully.
and the conclusion of wad i tot is...
*DRUMROLLS*
i always tot tt promises are promises.
it cannot be broken.
but i think i am wrong.
im too foolish to think tt everybody could keep their promises.
because its too childish for them.
only children keep their promises.
and i was too naive to think tt way in the morning.
maybe whatever i done was wrong.
i wouldn't hate you just because of this stupid little thing.
but i just cannot change histories!
so what happened had happened.
all i could do is to wait and wait.
RUMIN. i am so sorry about today.
i dunnoe what i had done.
i am just blur i think.
hahas. buhbyes people.

somewhere over the rainbow.

2008-11-20T01:38:00.000-08:00

i am having moodswings.
i noe i sholdn't but..
i noe i am real sad now.
but i believe tomorrow will be a greater dae.
i must ren.
after today,
things will get better.
cherishing everyday is a must.
in each lives there is only one chance to do everything.
once its gone, its gone for good.
i wouldn't mention wad had happened.
credits to dion.

你的回话凌乱著.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.
时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.
要怎么停呢
你的回话凌乱著.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.
时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.
要怎么停呢

smiles ppl:D

2008-11-19T06:13:00.001-08:00

i am so so happy today.
went for the peer support workshop in the morning.
woke up at 6 today.
its so tiring.
slept at 1++ ytd.
couldn't fall asleep.
then in the morning,
went to mac to meet libing.
yuting not feeling well so she did not go for the workshop.
went to the workshop from 8am to 5pm.
its 9hours.
but the t'cher very good let us off earlier.
left at 4pm.
one hour makes lots of difference.
i wanted to sleep in the workshop lohhs.
budden overall i find it fun.
after the workshop, homed.
then msn chatting all the way till now.
aniwaes, i did bathe okays.
in between the msn chatting time.
i love msn chatting mans.
its so fun:D

sadded.

2008-11-14T22:56:00.000-08:00

its just so sad.
maybe whatever adults said are true.
hatred is the results of wounded love.
i don't hate you.
but just feeling sad.
its all EMOTIONS.
i cannot control myself.
i feel like crying but i must ren.
i don't like showing others how weak i am.
so i wun cry infront of others.
maybe its me who is thinking too much.
or its my hormones jumping up and down.
but its just an interest.
its doesn't mean anything.
HEART-BROKENED.
i am too used to the life with you.
i noe i am able to live on without you.
but its not yet time.
i just need one day full of cryings and emoing.
it will all do.
i wanted to forget everything.
and i will forget everything.

KTV

2008-11-09T00:45:00.001-08:00

a picture speaks a thousands words.
went to ktv yesterday.
sung lots of songs.
heeehs~~ so fun luhhs.
went there with rumin, yishian, weiting, weixuan.
half way through, jiamin came over to join us.
i want to go there again.
its located at old katong shopping centre.
FUN FUN FUN.
today, went for my ballet class.
i really do enjoy it.
i think i do quite okays for today's lesson.
next week no lesson sadded.
but i want go church with rumin and jiamin.
it will be fun.
i must enjoy my holidays.
cannot take it for granted and slack at home.
AMEN! AMEN! AMEN!
very long nvr go church liao.
misses. ending here.
buh-byes people.
I HATE FORK!
:}

millions

2008-11-06T01:46:00.000-08:00

You're one in a million, Oh now
You're one in a million, Oh

Sometimes I can't hate you every day
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
Only one can really make me stay
A sign from the sky
Said to me

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us

I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
You smile, there you were and I was gone

I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me, Yeah
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one for me

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
I was cool and everything was possible
You tried to catch me but it wasn't possible
Nobody could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and went insane
And when you didn't want me, I wanted you
Because the finer thing bout it was I like to go
I like it when its difficult I like it when it's hard
You know it's worth it if ya find your heart

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million, Oh
You're one in a million